Thursday, September 3, 2015

A llittle bit of news

Hey guys.

I am sorry about not updating for a long while. There is a lot to say.

First of all, I would like to say first and foremost that I did not give up on my fanfics. I know it seems that way because it's been a long time that I did absolutely nothing about it, but believe me, it's for reasons that I can't really control. So I will continue them eventually but for now my fanfics, all of them, are in a hiatus until I can have the time to work on them. Hope you all can understand.

As for the reasons, well they can all be resumed into one sentence: Life kinda sucks.

I finished with school and University before summer, and oh boy, was I happy about it!! I am still happy about it, I am happy to have this part of my life finish. However, now I am starting a new part of my life; Trying to find a first job and it's really difficult for me.

I just thought naively that it would have been easy, but the truth is that it's not easy. It's not easy to just graduate and be in a region where no one wants to give you a chance because you have yet to have experience, and no want wants to give you that chance to have experience.

During the summer, many things happened. Due to some situation, I lost my part-time job. I didn't care about this job as it was part-time and didn't enjoy it, but it was still a job and I could earn some money. I am not going to bring money as an issue because it's not the main issue, thankfully, but it made my situation difficult. Since I had no part-time job and still wasn't able to find a job that I graduated for, I could help a little with my family though. I would wake up early and take care of kids, my cousins, and it really helped me to be honest and during the rest of the day I would help my parents who also needed help for personal things. but this was tiring too. On the other hand, I also used this opportunity to travel a little bit, since I didn't know when would be the next time that I could easily take off without causing problems since I didn't have a specific job. So it wasn't all that bad. And then some times during summer, my laptop died. Thankfully, I did not lost any of my fics!! It was a miracle, but then I had to buy a new laptop and it was not easy and not a thing I could have quickly...

But I hope you can see that with all that, I didn't have the motivation or the time to write fics. My mind is way out there to be honest, filled with worries that bring some difficulties to write. I am trying to get back at it, but after not writing for a while, I find it really difficult. Also, I think it's important to mention that english is not my first language. So I can't just write what comes to my mind and not correct it, I feel like it's wrong and that I still need to make sure that it makes sense and that it has the less errors. I feel really guilty about not being able to give you anything, but I also feel guilty when I spend time on it instead of trying to find a job. I know I shouldn't. I know that I should at least take a few times to myself, but since it became quite difficult for me to write, it takes more energy and I can't do it when I am tired. It sucks, but unfortunately before anything, my life comes first and now is the time I have to work hard in hope to find a first official job. I am just scared of ruining my chances.

So I hope you all can understand qwq Sadly, I think that I will be able to continue with my fics once I found a job and once I would finally feel secure again with my life. Maybe I can work on it there and here mainly because I feel guilty, but I just can't promise anything. If I do it, it's mostly because of guilt instead of motivation and I don't want to write something that I love a lot, like Rochu, out of guilt, I want to put effort on it and write it with the sense of security and happiness that Rochu always brings me qwq On the other hand, I did some ficlets at the beginning of January and February, maybe I can post them here meanwhile.

If you want to communicate with me or hear more about me, you can check my Twitter. I am mostly always there (right now it's a source of comfort somehow lol QvQ) and I would be happy to communicate with you!

Thanks everyone! I hope your summer was great and that you will have a nice Fall soon.

Wednesday, April 22, 2015

Hello there,

it's been a while isn't it.

At first, I want to thank everyone for their patience with me and for waiting for so long.

Secondly, I just wanted to say that if everything went alright and if I pass all my exams, that today was the day of my last school exam ever.

Hopefully everything went alright and that everything will be alright in the near future.

I still have two projects to give, so It's still not the "vacations" for me. But it's coming closer. I feel a little stressed about all that because I am entering yet into another big step of life so I can just hope everything will be alright for me and everyone else.

I will kindly ask for a little bit more of your patience because there are still some stuff I have to handle before I can work on my stuff (fanfics, fanarts etc.) again.

Thanks everyone ♥

Friday, March 20, 2015

yay! Today is the first day of Spring uwu Hopefully it's a good sign.

I just hoped I wouldn't be so anxious about everything.

Sunday, March 15, 2015

It's been a while...

Hey guys,

I decided to a little update about informations about my stuff  because it's been a long time. I am sorry it takes a long time until I update my things.


I am during my (hopefully, if everything goes well) last month of University. And there is a lot to do and think about, so I might not have the time again to work on my fics and stuff for now. My projects are not going so well, and I have a lot to think about concerning the end of school and the beginning of searching for a real job in my field of study. Anyway, a lot of boring and tedious things to for me in the next few months. xD

But anyway, I'll see what I can do! Right now all this is making me really stressful, so I can't really keep my focus.

Anyway I just want to say that I am SO sorry about my absence and the time I take to update!! I know it really sucks but if it makes you guys feel a little better, I am not happy about it either x,DD
It's kinda like really busy and stress, it's not so great.  So I am definitely not having fun x,D

Anyway I wish you guys happy times qwq

Thursday, February 19, 2015

My birthday!!

Today is my birthday!!!!! x3 


And google remember it uwu It's so cute!


Thursday, January 29, 2015

Updates on the present situation!

Hey everyone!

Sorry to not have updating anything lately. I started my last semester and up until now it's not easy x,D

I just lack of motivation to start any projects and now I have a lot to do OTL

So I think I will be very busy at least until the end of February, so I am not sure when I can work on my stuff. I'll see what I can do, but for now I really just want to make sure my projects for school are okay and all because I really want this semester to be the last one! QwQ And the fact that I am having some classes during the week end until the end of February are making things difficult to organise.

So Anyway, this is my situation for now and I hope you can all understand TTUTT I am so sorry to not  being able to post anything, I know it's been a very long time, but as soon as I can, I will work on my fics and stuff again qwq I really miss working on my Rochu fics, it really feels like something is missing without it. 

Tuesday, January 13, 2015

I started my semester and been in school for only 2 days, I am already stressed so much OTL