Yeah, I can definitely say that it's probably the most depressing summer holidays I ever had OTL



Since the beginning of it, i am just depress, moody, down and sad. The worst part is that I sadly don't think I have a valid reason to be like this. I have some issues with my work so I guess this is what cause me so much stress -_-lll

But, I don't know, compared to last year, I just can't bear with my job and I have no energy to do a thing.

My vacations were good though, it was great, but in the end, it was also very tiresome. But at least it changed my mind a little.

For a little while I am taking a break from stuff like DA and Tumblr. Though, I feel a little bad for not doing so, I mean I miss friends and usually it makes me happy to go there. But, I think it's a good idea to avoid going there, because I'm just so moody and emo recently and get easily saddened over anything, even things that aren't related to me =/  So I'll come back once I'll feel better ;n;

So instead, I am going to work on some of my fanfics. Maybe finish the Rochu one-shoots that I stated but never had the time to complete. And the art too. God, it's been so long since I haven't take some time for myself and draw something. It usually makes me so happy and relax, but recently I haven't got so much time *sobu*

Yeah, my life seems to suck, but it's not that bad, it's just that I am only distracted by the bad side of life that I can't see the good side. I used to be so optimist though -_-lll*sigh* Let's hope I can change a little bit.

Right now, my plan is to find another job, I feel bad for abandoning the kind people who are nice to me, but I seriously can't take it anymore. It's going to be bad every single time u_u

Sorry for always complaining like this though =c I feel pretty bad, but...I need to get this thing out of my head and this is the only place I can do without causing troubles.